Friday, February 19, 2010

Good News

Today I got some good news. I feel like I should be jumping up and down excited. I got a provisional job offer. Back in St. Louis. Doing a job that's a complete change of pace. I'll be doing something that might change people's lives - not just their pocket books. I also might be carrying a gun. Its crazy and exciting and somewhat unreal.

At the same time, I'm not as excited as I should be. My boyfriend can't even look me in the eye. I don't feel that he supports me. In fact, all I hear is "its not fair." I keep saying that I want him to come with me, but there's not much I can do.

I want to feel like its time to break out the Champagne, but I've got no one to drink it with.

Tuesday, February 09, 2010


Whenever people asked me why I was moving to Chicago, I always told them that I wanted "to see if I could." That's a stupid reason. Don't get me wrong - I've gotten a lot out of my move to Chicago.

With the dark overtone of my previous post, I must say that there are parts of Chicago I love. I've enjoyed explored a new place. I've eaten at fantastic restaurants. I love being able to walk to all kinds of wonderful places. I love the variety of music venues and artists that the city attracts. I love the fact that on any spring or summer weekend there is a music festival, street fair, or art fair somewhere in the city. I love that I walk to work. I love that my brother and his family are a 45 minute train or car ride away. I love the smell of the chocolate factory and the way it feels like home. I love the potential.

I love Lakeshore Drive and the view from the top of the Hancock. I love free outdoor ice skating. I love Ann Sather cinnamon rolls and stuffed dates at Avec. I love th skyline.

Its nice to visit, but I'm ready to be just comfortable again.